CC Duren

I get myself in trouble at least once a day with the stupid stuff i say, but i think i have topped myself.  This week i actually got in trouble for the words i didn’t say!  For some reason i have always had a hard time asking the hard questions in life… like really, its even hard for me to talk to my sister sometimes!  I have always had this horrible fear of rejection, which is stupid cause the worst anyone can say is “NO”.  Well i had this whole plan on how i was going to approach a certain situation, everything was going according to plan, but then i froze, i literally couldn’t find the words!  So as usual i walked away from the situation feeling stupid, and anger!  I mean here i am claiming to be an adult, but i can’t even express my mind, come one!  Minutes after realizing my mistake i decided that i was determined to speak my mind, the resolution to this problem should have been as simple as a 2 minute phone convo, but no i’m apparently to scared of that too, so no Courtney here decided she would portrait her feeling through a text message! WHAT!  only minutes after pouring out my heart through a message that holds 160 letters or less i began to realize just how stupid i truly am!  its been 2 days since the unveiling of my stupidity and i have still not received a response to my text, my only hope is that this person didn’t receive the in-closed information, and that i will have a chance to redeem myself.  Oi VA!