CC Duren

So this is so crazy I had to write it in my blog!  Last night at 6:30 in my home town of Red Lodge Montana there was a double homicide.  A boy of only 19, who was on lots of drugs shot and killed his mother, and the mother of his 18 month old child.  I went to high school with one of the girls who was shot, and although she was always really “cracked out” I never thought anything like this would happen.  I heard from reliable sources that about a week ago Tersha, who was the youngest victim called the RLPD and told them that she and her “mother in law” were in danger, and that her boyfriend was going to shoot them.  Well the good old RLPD didn’t take the claim seriously, and one week later the two woman were gone.   I don’t know about you, but that story totally freaks me out.  Yes I know that sadly people are shot, and murdered everyday, but Red Lodge is like this small ski town where nothing ever happens.  This is a town where everyone knows your name, and everyone considers “crime”  an underage smoking a cigarette behind the dumpsters at school.  

Well its that time of year again… the mountain is about to close, and my is beginning to break.  This year something is different though, it almost hurts more this year, I guess I just really became attacked this year.  Its kind of sad, its like a part of my life is being put on pause, and I have no control over it!  Its funny this is by far one of the hardest winters I have ever had, physically, and mentally.  I come home everyday from work with a new bruise, bump, or broken bone.  I am usually so tired that I literally fall asleep in the shower, and I am so sore it hurts to comb my hair.  When Monday roles around, and its back to the “real world” I find myself beginning the count down until Saturday, so that I can spend my days with 50 little hellions, who thrive on throwing snow in face, calling me “Peter”, “Co-Op Girl”, “Hippy”, and many names that shouldn’t be repeated.  I don’t know maybe pain brings me pleasure, but even just thinking about those kids makes me smile, not to mention all the amazing coaches I have worked with, and learned with this year.   Roger, who is the head coach for BSF is by far one of the coolest guys I have ever met, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t learn something from him.  Tyler makes me laugh everyday, he is goofy, and hot all at the same time.  And Will, o Will I don’t even know where to begin, I don’t think I would have gotten through the year without him… even if the roomers are constantly flying when we are together!  Of course there are other coaches that I have chosen not to speak of, but even those I should not mention have made this year the best year ever!   

these past few weeks i have been learning that life really throws you curve balls, they are strange, surprising, and sometimes they hurt, but in the end you know that you learn something from them, and are more prepared for the next time around!  most of you that have been reading my blog know that a lot of things in my life have completly changed.  i moved across the country, got my own apartment, changed my major, go to a huge new school, got a new job (which i love), and have had some crazy boy dramas (are there any other kind).  My family has also been hitting some curve balls, my dog Bear, who is probably more pampered by my parents then i am is sick, he has been in the hospital for three days now, and things just aren’t looking good.  my mom has been sick, and even went to the emergency room the other day (those who know my mom, know that she is not the hospital type).  my grandma was in the hospital this past week because she is so sick, and as i have mentioned in the past i am also battling being ill.  i recently made my first doctors appointment with a GI specialist, its kinda scary, i know that there is something wrong with me, but i don’t know what it is… once again.  my life has also had many personal changes, i have meet some pretty great people, mostly those who i work with, or coach, but all around top notch people.  i have my life line maddie, who i have known since high school, but never really appreciated until now, i couldn’t do it without her.  also in my life has been one man inparticular.  This man was one of my best friends, i couldn’t be around him without laughing until i peed, then we took our relationship to the “next step”, but things just didn’t work out, he was still “in love” with his ex, and i was still caught up on someone else.  days after we ended things i decided that i still had feelings for him, and that friendship was going to be harder than i thought.  this wouldn’t be to bad, except for the fact that i work with him, and see him almost everyday.  as the days past our friendship becomes more and  more complicated, and harder for me to bare, its not that i want to lose him as a friend, but it just hurts to much!    there have also been some very questionable choices that i have had to make lately, some that i am choosing to keep to myself, but there is one choice that just keeps on haunting me.  last week i went to the doctors, where i found out that there is something wrong with my intesten, and that i am WAY to stressed out for my age, or for any age. last year my doctor suggested that i take a semester off of school to get my health back on track, but i decided that i knew best, and that school was where i wanted to be.  well when returning to the doc this time, i was not suggested anything i was told that a semester off was what i needed.  this was great, i really have been wanting it, but knew that my parents would never go for it.  its not that i want the semester off to travel, and spend money, i really just want to work, and get my health back on track.  the only problem is i really feel like my parents would be disappointed, or think that i am just being lazy, i also don’t want to disappoint myself, or take the time off for the wrong reasons, i mean maybe i am being lazy, alot of people go to school, work, and deal with medical issues.  i don’t know! 

well i know it may not be green beer, but last night i celebrated St. Patty’s with one very large green and white cupcake!  it was amazing, it was one of those cupcakes from the bakery at Rosauers, yummy!  I know that eating a cupcake for St. Patty’s probably makes me lame, but i love me some sugar!

today i began thinking about my favorite sounds, ya i know it kinda sounds silly, but sounds really help to create a lovely world! I love the sound of the snow crunching under my feet, the sound of the leaves whispering in the trees, rain tapping on the roof, and my skis as they slide across the ice.  I love the sound of Harper on the telephone, my camera snapping as it takes a photo, my favorite song on the radio, “you’ve got mail”, my phone ringing (only sometimes/certain people).  I love the sound of chattering teeth, laughter, airplanes, bubbles as i descend  under water, my mom’s “wicked witch laugh”, and my cats grawl.